I got some contacts of my friends.

Back in May 16, I got a contact from one of my friends so that I can talk to him during the 2 weeks of CAASPP testing. We talked about an upcoming event, which I actually went to. :)))

A few weeks later, I tried to get some contacts from 2 more people who said maybe. I told them to please decide before the end of the school year. They and a couple of other friends joked about giving theirs to me without their consent, but they said that it's fine; I can have their contacts.

The staff were more lenient on students using their phones in the last week of school, which I took advantage of. That week was my final chance to ask any fellow students whose contacts that I want to get.

After leaving the promotion for 8th grade students, I and my family went to a local diner to eat. I had my class of 2023 necklace and spec. reg. items on me. I texted 2 of my friends in the same grade about it that night. I also told them that the next day is my final chance to ask another girl in our friend group for hers, which they said she wouldn't mind.

I asked her for her contact and she said, "Yeah sure." Later, she said that she doesn't feel comfortable doing it, so I withdrew my phone. Her friend knew that I have contacts, so that friend asked for mines and I agreed.

A couple of days later, I and that friend agreed to make a group chat. I told her that her friend doesn't feel comfortable giving her contact, but she said that she said it's fine. She's saying that she changed her mind; I may have her contact now.

In the afternoon on June 16, I unfriended one of my former friend named Chloe on Guilded because I've outgrown my friendship with them. Here's why (note that all the following events between the 2 vertical bars happened in May):

I've increasingly became disappointed that they didn't reply to my text messages on Guilded within 8 hours. And most of them were never even replied to. I figured how I'll tell her, which was that, "I'm disappointed that you're not replying to my text messages on Guilded." I made sure to say that instead of, "I'm disappointed in you for not replying to my text messages on Guilded," because the former isn't assuming that they must take their inaction personally. She said that it was because their screen time made it hard to reply.

A few weeks later, I got jealous of her as she started dating someone whose pronouns are he/his/him. 2 of the fellow students asked me how I feeling that my (now former) crush was asked out. I told them that I'm mostly happy.

I used the night time and the following weekend to save myself from an identity crisis. I decided that I will keep my distance from her and stop being friends with her forever. I know she's dating someone, so I believe that it was safe to assume to stop talking to her or else I will make her boyfriend have negative feelings towards me. I was on the internet that night and searched up some topics about burning bridges. I put my mindset into having a weekend that isn't much different from past weekends so that my ego passively dies and new emotions form.

I decided to count how long it has been since she started dating him.

Someone told me 6 days later that I can safely talk to her; I won't make her boyfriend mad. That person talked to her boyfriend about it and said it's okay for me to talk to her. But I told him that I no longer want to talk to her. She's no longer my friend now.

Conclusion for the previous section bordered by 2 vertical boundary lines: I have no regrets now that I've burned bridges with Chloe permanently and irreversibly, where she, her boyfriend and a handful of other students talk to each other but I don't talk to her.

I and 4 other former middle school students had an interesting and weird conversation on video call last night.